Week 15 Recap

Cravings:
French fries, but only when I smelled them. Broke down and got Chick-fil-a yesterday. Fresh Reeses sound good too. And store-bought cake.

Aversions:
Still some types of chocolate, and still not wanting to eat all the time.

Other symptoms:
Definitely feeling the moody. Starting to show fairly obviously, now.

Things bugging me:
My birthday is next week. I asked for a cake. I can't think of what else I want, since all I want is new floors in this damned house. That's ALL I WANT. Also bugging me: work, stress, and this damn crick in my neck. (Today is day 5 of crick. NOT COOL.) I was so stressed this week that Tuesday I was convinced I was getting Bell's Palsy again. I worked myself up into a real tizzy, but no palsy ever manifested itself. Just more proof how powerful my mind is and why I shouldn't let it get away from me like that.

Current weight: 135.4


Non-preggo stuff:
Preston had an endoscopy this week and he has some kind of growth/tumor/cyst at the mouth of his esophagus. He has to go to an ENT, and the GI suspects they'll do surgery to remove it. And to determine "what type of tissue it is". Great. WHat I really needed this week was to be afraid that P has cancer. Excellent.

14 Weeks

Posting this 2 days late, but I was in Chicago, whatareyagonnado?

Cravings:
Not really. Except french fries. And them only when I'm thinking about them.

Aversions:
Still some types of chocolate, and still not wanting to eat all the time.

Other symptoms:
Tired and a bit moody.

Things bugging me:
Yes.

And, P turned into a friggin' caveman while I was gone. He did NOTHING that I asked him to do. And I am very annoyed. Oh, and he called me fat. Idiot.

Current weight: 135

Had some trouble with food in Chicago, I think because of all the eating out. I mean, when I'm not preggers and on a work trip, I am usually sick of eating out by the time I get home, this time all that was just magnified. By Wednesday lunch, I just couldn't make myself eat, so I skipped it, and that seemed to restore some balance for me.

Have had 4 devastatingly bad headaches this week. I wake up with them, have to take Tylenol for them, which sort of helps but doesn't solve. Not a fan of these headaches - hope they are a phase that will be over soon.

Non-preggo stuff:
Was in Chicago all week for work. Knee bothered me on Wednesday just from walking. What bothers me most is that I didn't think I was walking too much, and it pisses me off that the knee is still such a limiter.

Pregnancy, Diet, and Weight Gain

I know, I'm pregnant, ergo I'm supposed to gain weight. I know. Really. I know.

But UUUUGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!

Here's what I ate yesterday, blow-by-blow, hour-by-hour:
6:30: Bolthouse Farms Perfectly Protein Mocha Cappuccino
7:30: Snickers Marathon Energy Bar, Dark Chocolate
8:30: Dannon Light-n-Fit Strawberry Banana Yogart Smoothie
10:10: Pringles 100 calorie tub + Babybel Cheddar cheese round
1:30: Amy's Cheddar cheese burrito + banana + viactiv calcium supplement
5:30: Home-made wrap with: 2 whole wheat tortillas, 1 slice each of swiss and provolone cheese, 1 slice ham, 2 slices turkey, 1 slice tomato, 1/4 avocado, spinach, mayo
7:00: strawberries with powdered sugar

I know I eat rather frequently in the morning and then clearly slow down in the afternoon, but I am hungrier in the morning, and all of those things are relatively small. In the afternoon I get hungry less often, but eat larger meals. I am hungry when I get home from work, but not starving.

And you know what, I'm going to go put this into Daily Plate and give you the damn nutritional breakdown, too.

Yeah: 2050 calories. Too much fat and sodium, but, duh, deli meats, cheese, and avocado. 99 grams of protein and 30 of fiber. 3 servings of veggies, 2 of fruit, 3 of milk products, and a solid protein at every meal. Lots of various vitamins and minerals.

Honestly, I know I'm not perfect. There is room for improvement there, like more veggies earlier in the day, more veggies overall, really, but, shit, I'm pretty proud of that. I was going for variety, color, more freshness than usual, more veggies and fruit than usual. No candy or chocolate at all, with the exception of the sugar with the strawberries, and sue me for that, will ya?

Oh, and I drank 5 bottles of water. 5. I peed like 50,000 times yesterday. For serious.

What gets me is that I was almost a POUND heavier this morning. A FULL POUND. Seriously?? I mean, fucking SERIOUSLY??? This is what kills me about being pregnant! There is no rhyme or reason to this. I'm supposed to gain a pound a week, not a pound a day. So what did I do wrong? Did I do anything wrong, or is this just how it is? How can I adjust my diet appropriately if the feedback is so fucked up?? Am I now going to go 7 days and then gain another pound all in one day? What if I gain another pound tomorrow??? How do I know? How do I know if I am doing this right? ARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHH!

(Yes, I know. Lighten up, Amber. No, you can't do this perfectly. You will gain what you gain. Let go. I know, but changing your thinking is much harder than just knowing you should.)

13 Weeks

Cravings:
Ugh, do I have to eat? (Not feeling sick, just nothing sounds good.)

Aversions:
Meh. Do I have to eat?

Other symptoms:
Tired and a bit moody.

Things bugging me:
Do I have to eat?

Current weight: 133.4

Had a belly check last week. And I have an infection which I just finished treating yesterday. Thank goodness. I had to pay $11.50 to park in the damn garage at the OB for 90 minutes. For reals.

I'm really starting to look preggers, at least to me. And I think also to P. Last night I was laying on my back in bed, and my stomach was actually sticking up. For the first time ever. I actually cried when I noticed. Wore maternity clothes to work for the first time last Thursday. I still feel like a goofball in maternity clothes, but I am soooo much more comfortable in loose things right now. Went shopping the other weekend for maternity clothes. Had a total bust on tops (thanks to Justina, though, I don't need much up top), but looooove the Old Navy maternity jeans with woven waistband that I bought. And there is something very satisfying about being able to buy a size 4 even when you are preggers... Other than at Old Navy, Target and Kohl's were a bust, and I didn't have very much fun maternity shopping. Total bummer.


Non-preggo stuff:
Moved up to Couch to 5K, Week 2, Days 1, 2, and 3 last week and this morning. My knee is still allowing the running. Knee doc says maybe I can aim for a 4th of July 5K. Sounds good to me! All my wind are belong to kid. (Still.) For serious.

More Preggo Dreams

2 nights ago, I dreamt that I was laying in bed and I could feel the baby moving. I'd put my hand on my abs, right below my belly button, and my abs were for some reason split down the center, maybe half-an-inch, and right there I could feel the baby's heartbeat? You read that right: heartbeat. It was sooo creepy!

Last night I dreamt that I had the baby, it was a boy (not a redhead, le sigh, but brown like P), and I was trying to breastfeed him by this pool, only he wasn't really interested. In the dream he was 2 days old, but waaaaay too big for a newborn.

I had a few glorious nights where I didn't have to get up in the middle of the night to pee, but the pee has returned this weekend. And I toss and turn. And the weather is getting warmer, which means I'm much less comfortable in the night. And we're just getting started. Joy.

12 Weeks

Cravings:
Smoothies, especially berry flavored ones
Fresh home-made wraps with: wheat tortillas, fat mayo, swiss, provolone, ham, turkey, tomato, avocado, spinach

Aversions:
Chocolate, still
Eggs, at least, I'm still scared of them

Other symptoms:
Still ravenous
Less tired (thank goodness)
Less nauseous (thank all that is good and holy)
And I think I'm peeing a bit less too!

Things bugging me:
Dirty kitchen (it isn't ever really going to be clean, is it?)
Dirty nursery carpet (I WANT NEW FLOORS!!!)

Current weight: 132.8 (It just happened one day. I was 121.4, and then the very next day I was 132.8, and it hasn't dropped back down. It looks like this might be my pattern: plateau, gain all at once, plateau, gain, etc. It has been that was so far.)
I have continued doing a great job avoiding the MCC ice cream, and eating lots of fresh fruit/veggies (although perhaps not as great a variety as I should).

Had an ultrasound appointment for Nuchal Translucency Testing. I don't really think the test was necessary, but thought it would be cool to see my kid again, so did it. I was supposed to go with a full bladder, and boy(!) did I ever comply! The tech actually said it hurt her to look at it that full, and then let me go pee! The kid wouldn't get into the perfect position for her, so she prodded and jiggled my belly trying to get him to roll over. Kid is already stubborn like a redhead... (oh, please, let my kid be a redhead!) I was secretly cheering him on, because the longer he didn't comply, the longer I got to look at him! Brought home 5 pics for Preston. Seriously, I could not believe how much *bigger* he was. Instead of 4 indistinct circles, I saw a profile! And arms! And fingers! And a radius and ulna! And a spine! Wow. I mean, seriously, wow. After about 35 minutes, she got the shot she needed, they took my blood, and I went to Smoothie King for my reward!


Non-preggo stuff:
Did Couch to 5K, Week 1, Day 2 last Sunday, and Day 3 this morning. My knee didn't hurt, and has been much less sore than the first time in the days following. The kid still owns allllllll my wind.