2019 Goals

I'm still not feeling super goal-ish.  I am in a better place than I was for most of last year, but it feels fragile.  I had some success with my more forgiving goals last year, so let's do that again.  My goals are actually very similar....

I want to continue exercising regularly.I want to continue cleaner eating.  Not strictly - I want to practice being a flexitarian and making good choices in context.I want to keep working on and managing my health and get it to a place where it isn't negatively impacting my every day life in a big way.  I may not have control over meeting this goal, but it is a real focus and deserves the mention.I want to take good care of myself mentally.I have one really nice vacation planned and I want to go and enjoy myself and take beautiful pictures and feel filled up with peace and joy.  There will probably be more vacations, and the goal is the same for all.I want to really buckle down on the money thing.  We can do better.  I need us to do better.  I'd like to see 9 months green AND the overall year green, and by more than a few dollars.
There is the potential that I'll be having a surgery this year.  If I do, I want to use down my vacation days at work on things I enjoy FIRST.  (This is important for the money thing too, because there will be bills and no salary for 2 months.) I want to be gentle with myself as I heal.  But I also want to not allow pain to completely derail all of the progress I've made.  Gentle, but then back on the train.

It does help me to note these things: 2017 starting weight was 150.  2018 starting weight was 153.  2019 starting weight is 142, and I've dipped well below that in 2018, so I think there are losses at my fingertips.  There are 3 major differences in what I'm doing. Most importantly is the thyroid meds.  Second, though, I'm eating cleanly for thyroid health (not for weight loss).  I'm not counting calories.  I'm just eating very differently with a focus on whole unprocessed foods.  And finally, I'm not sure if it is really a factor, but when I'm exercising now, I'm not going to the point of mega pain or exhaustion.  I'm not training for anything but life.  That may change in the coming year - I really do miss running - but for now, that is there and it may be a factor.